check out this interesting article
Another reason that reiki and energy healing is effective and helpful anytime and to those healing....
I found videos like that on Elite Daily and find it really interesting... what a great service to those in need of some dopamine/oxytocin and whatever else gets released during a cuddling. Touch is a healer. A healer that I have seen texted me to tell me he thought I needed healing and he was going to work on me remotely. He has a powerful energy so I accepted. Yesterday I felt ok. Today, burning nerves, low mood, gasping for air, I have lost my groove. I have a dark sense and a part of me fears I am not going to make it through this. I know everyone says, oh , of course you will, but my body feels weak and vulnerable and I cannot withstand any more hits. I am still recovering from an illness and trying to get back on the right path physically and mentally. I feel if I could be ok physically I could be ok mentally. But is this spiritual? I just watched Ram Dass' documentary Fierce Grace. As he was writing the ending of his book on Death and Aging and grappling with an ending he was 'stroked' by his guru. He uses his experience with his stroke as a spiritual experience. I have had so much medical trauma I just feel beaten down by the prospect of more.
Feeling sorry for myself today. Feel done with burning, insomnia, hell. I want to get through this. Been reading success stories on BB. When I felt well I didn't even go online at all. I was climbing out of the hold for a month. I would still like to move out of my home to get some respite and healing on my own. I need space, I need solitude and I crave being alone with no one else around. I have reached out in recovery meetings but I don't want to have to explain my story. I am so done. Tomorrow is another day. I seem to have good and bad waves and windows so let's pray for some respite tomorrow. I might visit the sea.....
Darkness has descended on my psyche today. I am not sure what it is. I forced myself ot go to the mall to get some makeup and I am not sure that was a good idea. Burning. chest pain, fatigue, darkness,,,,,
I can't exercise so I sit. I clean. I fold laundry. I ruminate. I try to stay calm and say this too shall pass, this too shall pass....
If anyone ever reads this I would love to hear from people. I would love to hear your stories and answers to these questions...
Why were you put on benzos?
How long were you on them?
When did you notice there was a problem or decide you wanted off?
Did you have any prior medical issues or underlying mental health issues?
What kind of work were you doing before benzo?
What were the top 3 stressful things going on in your life BEFORE benzos. And now?
If you have healed, how long did you taper and how long did it take you to heal?
What were the top 5 coping strategies that you used that you would share with others?
What were the top 5 things you thing you did wrong during this process?
Was this process spiritual for you or did you just view it as a medical-mental/physical issue to overcome?
What are the gifts that you received after going through this experience?
Who/what were your top supporters?
If you could create the perfect benzo center what would it look like and what would it offer?
If you could give one parting piece of advice...what would it be?
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.