Wish I had read this BEFORE I was prescribed.

sCheck out this link:
www.huffingtonpost.com/van-winkles/is-it-bedtime-for-benzos_b_7663456.html


This is a great and informative article about the dangers of using benzo or Z type drugs for sleep. Although I was initially prescribed Valium in my twenties for interstitial cystitis, I returned to valium when I was getting little to no sleep after having kids. I never ever in a million years thought my infrequent use would lead me here. But when I had a bad reaction to a steroid shot, my acupuncturist who was also an MD assured me that my sleep was vital and "we can worry about you getting off after you get some sleep-you are not an addict" he assured me. I agreed. I never thought my small usage would land me in this kind of life altering circumstance, but it did. 

Let's inform our GP's, our doctors, our healers. When I landed in the ER recently with a bladder infection (another joy of benzo w/d) the ER doc said " Well, benzo w/d only lasts 3 weeks" . We know that clearly isn't true as in my cold turkey and fast taper it was the 3 week mark when things started to get utterly unbearable and life threatening (such severe diarreah and muscle twitching all over my magnesium level plummeted to o.2). I met a woman today who said she was just diagnosed with fibromyalgia. When I talked with her further she said she's been taking 1mg of ativan for the last 15 years. I told her, you don't have fibromyalgia, you are in tolerance withdrawal. Jesus. I didn't go to medical school but it just makes sense. So many tragedies because of overprescription and misuse of medications that are meant for 2 weeks tops. Why I never read the insert of the medication packet, why I never took it seriously, I take full ownership of that. And I must forgive myself for looking for a short cut to the deeper physical/emotional and spiritual problems in my life. I needed to take a look at WHY I wasn't sleeping in the first place (thyroid, over work, disconnection, disillusionment, exhaustion, being on a hamster wheel and not knowing how to bring joy back in my life).

I feel fortunate the last couple of days. They have been ok. I am continuing to listen to Joe Dispenza but I think I need more direction on how exactly to meditate as if the outcome that you desire has already happened. He says you have to sit down and imagine yourself there and when you get up from the meditation you have to get up as a different person entirely. Forget the WHEN and HOW the outcome will happen, just release it to the quantum field as if it has already happened and wait for the results. Magical thinking? Hey, bring it on.