Lovely and amazing day. Had my first entry into shaman work today. I had a session with a shaman that was quiet, subtle but powerful and grounding. It started with me standing up and the shaman who circled me drumming and drumming. I felt calm and open, not really expecting much. Then we proceeded to the table work. She is also trained in cranial sacral work and other forms of body work. I set the intention that I wanted to get clarity and get grounded. The kundalini experience from a couple of weeks back still has left a fire in my chest and a lot of unanswered questions. Kind of a yearning for more of it but also a recognition that now might not be the time to explore that kind of energy in the midst of a benzo withdrawal. Once on the table I had some images and visions from my childhood ---first came a monkey jumping around and around and then a vision of me as a child ( I was called Monkey as a term of endearment). Then came some not so great images, and a release with tears. Once that settled I just kept my breath going and she did some whisper blowing thing around my chakras. Apparently quite a few of them are blocked --1-2-3-4-5 ha! I felt some shivering as she did this and that familiar light coursing through my arms over and over again and throughout my body. I felt a powerful circular energy going around and around and around. No clue what any of this means. but it felt like the beginning.... it was healing and I felt very very relaxed. I had some more images--a purple bracelet, trees, animals, who knows. Then she rang some little chime type of bells that felt like little fairies cleansing and completing the work. She told me they said no soul retrieval today but there is some work ahead.... Slower the better... When the session was over I had a can-do attitude regarding this stupid taper. I was like, hell yeah, I can do this. Screw all the negative stories and fear. I got this..... I felt a bit of a re-set in my thinking and feeling. I had a lovely afternoon with my son and am feeling pretty good today. Also--drink that cherry tart juice! Wow! It really helps with sleep....
So overall, it was quite lovely and amazing...
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.