Another day. Another wave. I am still in disbelief that this is the current state of my life. Sxs: intense chest pain, burning all over. Terror but less. Not much akathesia today. Thank you god.
I am here. I am worried I will be stuck here in a medicated hell. I was a vibrant, healthy girl that did yoga and hiked and played tennis. Even two months ago. What has happened. Trying to regain stability and Praying that I can. I talked to Baylissa today. She is so lovely and helpful. Can't think straight today so this is all I will write. I am sorry for the state of this blog. It's diminishing in it's helpfulness. I have to pull myself out of this darkness but the physical symptoms are so intense. Forcing myself out of the house today. Sitting in the garden eating an apple. Going to the bank. I have a fantasy that a natural amino IV will help reboot my neurotransmitters and all will be well. I have a fantasy that overnight poof this will be gone. And when I have a window that is what happens! Poof, Like I have been living in a nightmare. Healing is happening. Healing is happening each and every day.
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.