This AA slogan rings true all the time but especially during benzo withdrawal. Obsessive thoughts and looping are intense and it's hard to quiet the mind. Every night I am meditating using Joe Dispenza's techniques and some days (not all)falling into a deep alpha state that I hope can help reshape my brain when I land off the medication. There is a deep uneasiness in the pit of my stomach, an impatience today... god, hasn't this gone on long enough? I am trying very hard to keep my emotions in neutral for the next 4-5 months. We shall see. I am still listening to comedy, walking daily, trying to connect with friends (this is a hard one because usually half way through our time together I want to be by myself), trying to hold off on making big decisions.
The main point is if this is not your first attempt to get off the drugs, it's likely you have been through some trauma around it. This time, as Baylissa Frederick did it's about getting off at all costs. ALL COSTS. Work, kids, marriage, money. There is no way out but through.
Keep calm and carry on...
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.