privacy

The need for accidental addict groups is  so necessary. Mostly on days like today when only my 'benzo friends' can understand, But it's funny because many of us are hesitant to talk on the phone with one another for fear of triggering or activating more symptoms. Best thing is to ignore them but when they are knocking loudly at the door it is really hard. Some of my benzo friends have turned a corner in a positive way. One man was having an inordinately hard time and suddenly when he hit 1mg something lifted and he is able to sleep through the night! Wow. I feel like a broken record in my life. Everyone keeps looking at me funny saying--wow this has been going on for so long. Yes, believe me, I know, I am living it. It's endless. Endless. Endless. Can I make that any more clear? It really is. Horrifyingly endless. I don't know if and how I will come out of this. I feel so angry and tired. I was on a good positive run there for like a minute... bear with me, I will climb back there soon. Continue taper or hold while sick? That's the question. I feel worried.