How many of us are moms and dads out there?
When I read Matt Samet and Baylissa and Jennifer Leigh (her kids were grown at the time of her withdrawal I think?) I wonder HOW DO PEOPLE DO THIS WITH YOUNG CHILDREN?
I read some BAD stories on BB about people 50 mos out, still disabled. I think if I am disabled for 3,4 or 5 more years?
Stay in the now. In the now.
I am powerless over this and YES my life has become unmanageble.
I can't turn back time and be 30 or 35 or 20 going through this.
Today I am finding it very very hard to be positive.
I am sorry.
Am I using my tools? No, not really.
So, up I get, going to wash the negativity off with a shower and plunge myself on a walk.
If you are unwell or reading and writing from a bed, do what you can.
Listen to bineural beats and meditations for calming.
Listen to Bliss John's calming meditations
You can do this
I looked at pictures of my gorgoeus benzo friend who was tough and strong and lifting weights 3 years ago. She looked beautiful with her whole family. She is in a recliner now unable to leave her home. We have to fight this and we cannot let a tiny pill take us down. I texted her this morning and I said, "This isn't us" It isn't. I was doing yoga and hiking daily just two years ago. Despite my health issues I never let it stop me.
When I look at the size of the valium I am taking it is half of a 2mg pill. Miniscule really. I cannot let this take me down. Yes, I took wrong advice and made mistakes last year because I was misonformed. I trusted the wrong doctors and it's the community support and knowledge that has given me the tools to get to where I am today.
Keep going. Keep fighting.
Each day and in every way I am getting better and better. Bliss John's words of wisdom. :)
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.