I went to a workshop today on A Course Of Miracles. I have the big blue book and have read it here and there. It is pretty dense and it seems helpful to have others to talk to about it. Today the teacher said that the basis of a Course of Miracles is moving from a place of fear to a place of love...that is the miracle. Whatever you are afraid of in your life, can you move into a place of love about it. We meditated on the mantra " Can you let this be a miracle, can you let this be a miracle?". So, it's a fancy way of saying can you reframe this experience that you are having at the moment.
If I can adjust my attitude in this way, maybe the symptoms don't have to be so uncomfortable or scary. I know everyone wants to know... what are the symptoms? Does it really matter? How bad are they? Are they as bad as MY SYMPTOMS?
I notice on the forums there are a lot of people that admit they have hypochondria. Someone posted a frantic post about his red poo after eating red velvet cake. I had to laugh. And I laugh because I have been there, I don't laugh to make fun of anyone.
I was having strong feelings about something in my life today and instead of feeling the feelings (which I fully thought I was doing) I convinced myself that I had this disease (I won't mention it it doesn't matter). Now look, I might have that said disease. And I might not. But I tried to think why is this hypochondria popping up right now? I haven't had it in a while. I mean I have been all sorts of uncomfortable but I have been trying day by day to be in full acceptance of this experience. Again, I am not in acute bc if I was I might not be able to talk/think/write etc etc. so my deepest empathy for those that are.
I was using this fear as a major distraction from the real fear that I was feeling.
I tried to acknowledge that and talk it over with a friend. I was of service to another friend in need today. I did my best. You are too.
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.