Grateful...

So I was so over focused on my fears I forgot to write what I was initially SO grateful for today.
I picked my son up from school.
We went on a date for sushi together. We talked. I love being with him, he's just fun and curious and eccentric.
I got him some ice cream
That's it.
My benzo friend who is struggling texted "You are light years away from me if you can have sushi with your son". But I am still on the drug, she's off. She's struggling. It's goddamn hard and she is amazingly strong. I also told her without the neurontin on board ZERO of this would be happening. I'd be in a hospital bed. For sure bedridden.
So.... I am grateful. I pushed myself to do what I could despite my stuff and I am SO very grateful for the little moments. This is hard. So hard. For those who are caring for someone going through this, this is hard beyond what you can imagine. So please be gentle. Please be kind. I know it's hard on you too. These little things were BIG for me today. I am grateful
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