I had a wonderful dream last night.
I prayed to god. I asked for a sign again in my dream before I went to sleep. I asked if god, angels or whomever were with me right now. If this was in fact a path I am supposed to be on. Because I am just stunned I am here. I prayed in my dream and when I said show me a sign I looked up at the sky and saw a shooting star. Fireworks came down into my back yard! I was pain free in my dream. I was ready to go bike riding. I looked good. Healthy. Like I did right after I had my first son. I did some RESEARCH (ugh so tired of it) and it seems that it is my brain trying to RAISE dopamine. All the seeking, looking, and looking again. Today I start my day writing (better than doing this at night ) and make a gratitude list: healthy, happy children On the path I am destined to be on Roof over my head Food in the fridge Love in my life (even if I can't feel it right now at all) a glimmer of hope beauty in life the new natural hair dye I bought for 8 dollars getting the energy to paint my nails determination to get better no matter what The will to live despite feeling very very tired in this fight a gratitude practice starting TODAY. Getting off my phone and today I will try to stay off my computer as well Comedy (although I haven't felt up to watching it, I know it's there) What are you grateful for today? Let's up our dopamine stores!
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AuthorSomeone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY. Archives
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