Some reminders for myself that I thought I would share:
1.Accept the pain/suffering. Lean into it.
2. Accept the change that is happening in your life because of this or before this....
3. What shadow material is coming up. Work with it. Don't ignore it. Face it. Gently.
4. Don't unpack too much emotionally but stay connected to the ultimate lesson or purpose here. Finding meaning and purpose will help me get through anything. Sometimes we don't know what that is for years to come, but it will emerge.
5. Ask yourself--is this good for my recovery before you take any action, make any comittment, or say yes when you might mean no. This is a time for healthy narcissism. This is a time for complete self-love.
6. Forget about your looks right now. Don't worry about your clothes, your hair, your skin whatever. It will all come back into balance when your brain and body heal.
7. Visualize yourself well everyday. I imagine myself doing cartwheels, yoga, hiking in nature, playing with my children and making out on a desert island. Imagine yourself in pure bliss, enjoying life to the fullest.
8. Do what you can to be comfortable---reduce hours at work or quit if you need to. Try to get up and do one different thing everyday. Even if it means going in the yard and looking at a flower or listening to the birds.
9. Listen to 15 min of comedy everyday. Laugh. Laugh Laugh.
10. Turn the music on. If you can dance, try to dance, Or just put on your favorite music and imagine yourself dancing and free.
11. Cry. Let yourself be vulnerable. Remember THIS IS NOT THE REAL YOU. THIS IS YOUR BRAIN ON THIS POISON. THIS WILL PASS.
12. Listen to positive words, spiritual prayer, meditation, talk to god, angels, spirits, nature, your higher power.
13. Once you have a comfortable taper, stop going to doctors unless there is a medical issue you are very concerned about. Likely it will make you feel worse because they minimize or deny this experience or make you feel like you have multiple diagnosis or you will never get well. We are getting well everyday. People heal from strokes, brain injury, so many issues. What would make us different?
14. Stay off forums, find your friends or support and minimize your time there. Personally it feeds my fear comparing symptoms and progress. We all have symptoms, best not to be scared by them.
15. Try to find a quiet place to sleep. I am considering moving to get time and space away
16. Consider joining a support group in your area if there is one. Be coached or counseled by people that understand and others that have been through this themselves.
17. Savor the good days, the good moments, the good windows.
18. Try not to write the end of the story. You don't know if you will end up in acute, you don't know how long it will take to heal, you don't know where this will lead you. Stay open. Try to stay positive. It will be what it will be.
19,.Meditate meditate meditate. Get foot massages or have your friends or partners massage and ground you through your feet.
20. There is no other way out but through, much like giving birth. The only way out is through. Trust that you are giving birth to something new--a new awakened you, a new way of living, thinking, feeling, acting. This experience will forever change you but it doesn't have to scar you. It can renew your love of life, love, simplicity, and inner peace. Every moment will be appreciated when you are through this.
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.