My doctor mentioned this article that I had posted on my fb feed.
He said there was another article in the New England Journal of Medicine that also addressed the growing problem of benzo withdrawal, but he said he found one fatal flaw in the article!
The article claimed that there were effective treatments for benzo withdrawal which my doctor clearly admitted THERE ARE NONE. They don't exist.
Get on but whoops we can't get you off.
Oh, you needed these pills to begin with because it's your old condition reappearing.
Oh, you're just exaggerating, you look fine to me.
Oh, you look like you've aged ten years but I think you should go to a psych hospital,
Oh, your akathisia isn't really akathisia it's just anxiety.
Oh, these online groups are the cause of your suffering.
Oh, I've never seen this before, I don't know what this is.
On and on and on the gas lighting goes.
Until you realize: Holy fucking shit. I'm completely alone.
Better yet they say, just stay on forever because as one doctor told me, " You're trying to control the process".
Fuck yeah I am trying to control the process once I trusted you and you singlehandedly ruined my entire central nervous system and health.
Fuck yeah I'm going to do my own research and not listen like sheep to what is in your outdated medical textbook.
Fuck yeah I'm going to turn to the support of others in the same "boat" as I am and look for a life raft
Hang on folks! Let's all hang on.
Sorry I'm in a funk because this terror today is killing me. I can't be positive, or write anything positive when this terror invades every cell of my being 24 hours per day. I just can't.
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.