Although this blog isn't about withdrawal induced akathesia, Angie and some of her other posts describe the horror of this condition quite succintly.
It's not mania, though it can look like it.
It's not psychosis, though it can make you feel as though you are going insane
It's not mental illness, it is a physiological imbalance caused by dopamine/serotonin imbalance from my understanding. I am not a doctor. Not even close.
I know they say, stay as clean as possible in order to heal.
It's hard if the withdrawal you are in is so godawful and painful that it is impossible due to lack of sleep and severe nerve pain.
I think we each have our own path.
If there is a medication that can help, take it.
I do wonder about the efficacy of B6. Mine just tested pretty low. Instead of taking a supplement (which I am at the moment deadly afraid of doing considering the fragility of my CNS) I am trying to eat loads of pistachio nuts, other B6 rich foods. However, if you can't absorb it or are born with difficulty doing so am not sure what to do.
I am having my levels checked again in the next several weeks. I will consider supplementation after that. Who knows. For all we know that could be the ticket to freedom. Or at least less suffering.
Fuck, I would shove almost anything in me to make it stop.
As Jay Lamb said " I'd have cut both my balls off to make it stop"
And another board member said, " I would have sold my entire family into slavery to make it stop"
I am glad Jay was able to have a sense of humor through it.
One day at a time. One moment at a time.
If anyone ever reads this, please feel free to share success stories and what has worked for you.
We need some positives on the internet please!!!
It's all doom and gloom and horror.
I am sorry to be adding to that.
I want to believe all the experts who actually BELIEVE and UNDERSTAND this condition who say it gets better and we all heal.
Yesterday I felt god, there is no way out of this. I have to break it down to very small manageable steps.
We do heal.
Our brains and bodies want to return to homeostasis.
Someone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY.