How many of us are moms and dads out there?
When I read Matt Samet and Baylissa and Jennifer Leigh (her kids were grown at the time of her withdrawal I think?) I wonder HOW DO PEOPLE DO THIS WITH YOUNG CHILDREN? I read some BAD stories on BB about people 50 mos out, still disabled. I think if I am disabled for 3,4 or 5 more years? Stay in the now. In the now. I am powerless over this and YES my life has become unmanageble. I can't turn back time and be 30 or 35 or 20 going through this. Today I am finding it very very hard to be positive. I am sorry. Am I using my tools? No, not really. So, up I get, going to wash the negativity off with a shower and plunge myself on a walk. If you are unwell or reading and writing from a bed, do what you can. Breathe. Listen to bineural beats and meditations for calming. Listen to Bliss John's calming meditations Keep going You can do this I looked at pictures of my gorgoeus benzo friend who was tough and strong and lifting weights 3 years ago. She looked beautiful with her whole family. She is in a recliner now unable to leave her home. We have to fight this and we cannot let a tiny pill take us down. I texted her this morning and I said, "This isn't us" It isn't. I was doing yoga and hiking daily just two years ago. Despite my health issues I never let it stop me. When I look at the size of the valium I am taking it is half of a 2mg pill. Miniscule really. I cannot let this take me down. Yes, I took wrong advice and made mistakes last year because I was misonformed. I trusted the wrong doctors and it's the community support and knowledge that has given me the tools to get to where I am today. Keep going. Keep fighting. Each day and in every way I am getting better and better. Bliss John's words of wisdom. :)
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Rachel carroll
12/16/2016 05:52:12 pm
Hi. I read your article on MIA and came to check out your sight and read your latest blog. It captured my eye as I too am a mum of two glorious little creatures ages 3 and 6.
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D
12/16/2016 08:34:05 pm
Thank you for sharing. I laughed out loud about the dickhead remark.
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Rachel carroll
12/18/2016 12:09:51 am
I was pretty much ct off mirtazapine onto pristiq. So hard to say. But for 2 weeks I was in very bad shape. I had to go to the hospital as they thought I had serotonin syndrome. I had to take some drug to stop the action of the ad. I'm probably lucky to be alive in more ways than one. In general I think mirtazapine is another very tough one to get off sadly.
DS
12/18/2016 04:10:15 pm
Great to hear you are in a window! fantastic. Cannot wait for my success story!
Olga Matveeva
12/16/2016 06:01:47 pm
Your suffering is terrible but your blog is great! It captivated me, because I am in a same life mode of pain and difficulty of everyday survival. You are very gifted ! Your writing is inspirational! it shows your strengths and small victories in every day incredibly difficult struggle.
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DS
12/16/2016 08:35:01 pm
Thank you so much Olga. Your words mean so much. I am sorry you are suffering too. I hope you continue to heal and fight this crazy private struggle.
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JK
12/18/2016 03:59:07 am
Hello, I am in the same boat. Bad reaction to antibiotic and couldn't sleep. Took Ativan for one week and stopped - was in w/d but don't know it. Depression and returned insomnia. Etc...Thought I needed Prozac or just Ambien so tried those while then back to Ativan only for three weeks that "stabilized" me and have been tapering at 10% since with a compound pharmacy. Also in an online program called point of return that provides 24/7 online support and supplements to rebuild glutathione and assist with sleep. I'm a mom and Therapist too ...,this has been my worst nightmare ever! Did you switch to V from Ativan for your taper?
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DS
12/18/2016 04:09:12 pm
Oh great. How is POR working for you?
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JK
12/19/2016 04:30:11 am
It's working out great. They are very knowledgable about interactions of certain foods to eat and stay away from. I am a foodie so it has been tough giving up somethings but it makes a huge difference in reducing the severity of symptoms. Basically staying away from excitotoxins and anything that it stimulating or will cause an inflammatory response. Surpringly, bananas are huge one because of the tryptophan, but also tyramine when ripe which can stimulate the nervous system. Very interesting. Leave a Reply. |
AuthorSomeone who found themselves accidentally dependent and suffered an iatrogenic injury from medications that were prescribed. Sharing experience, strength and hope with others. This is written as a person on this winding path and NOT as a professional. Please contact a licensed professional for any medical/psychological care or advice. This is NOT a substitute for medical or psychological care. What is written here reflects my own personal experience ONLY. Archives
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